Hello! I've been absent for far too long. I guess I got stuck in the holiday rush and have totally neglected my poor blog! Anyways, I'm back! And my ONE of my New Year's resolutions is to post much more frequently to this blog. (Did you know this is my secondary blog?) So you should be hearing from me much more often!

To pick up from where I left off, I wanted to make a confession. My daughter is 16 months old, has not nursed since she was 12 months old and yet I still find myself wearing a (GASP!) nursing bra occasionally. *BLUSH* Yes, I said it. I wear a nursing bra while not even nursing! Am I crazy? Yes! Honestly, I think it is very sad. Let me explain (not that I think the explanation will make it any more justified).

I wore all my old bras while I was pregnant. My one black bra got totally warped and the wires bent from all the extra "baggage" I was carry while housing my babe. While nursing I had four nursing bras - two white, a black (that I didn't wear until the end because it was too small), and a light green (my favorite!). Now that I am post-nursing I'm back in my old bras. It's sad, really. Not only are my breasts back to their original size (if not smaller) they are saggy! So when I need a black bra the old comboggled one no longer works so I opt to use the black nursing bra. It's clean. It fits. It supports my saggies.

So if you're still reading me and not judging too much, thank you! I have to tell you, it's not that we don't have the money to purchase some new bras. It's just that I'm horrible about being one of these women who has a hard time spending money on myself. I wear my shoes until the soles are falling off or the heal is showing the metal stub, I buy a new pair of (cheap) jeans every three to four year (at best), I use the same purse for years on end, and getting a pedicure is huge deal.

I know it's sad. My own 16 month old daughter has nicer things than I do. This is something I need to work on and have been working on. As I mentioned earlier I was given a wonderful opportunity for a promotion about 8 months ago and am trying to realize I work hard, make darn good money, and deserve to spoil myself every once in a while. Why is it that I have such a hard time doing so? I feel guilty and can't rationalize spending $150 on a pair of jeans. Don't get me wrong, I do have some nice things and I look presentable at work and sometimes even trendy, but most items are gifts given to me or handed down from my mom. So there's another New Year's resolution to tack onto the list... I will spoil myself occasionally throughout this coming year! Here's to 2010 my friends! CHEERS!